Holy fucking shit.
I mean, we were both in similar situation but when i met his peer student, i know whats so different about her from Linnéa :)
She’s into the asian culture, thats a start.
She’s not as stubborn.
Okay i don’t wanna badmouth Linnéa.
But really, albeit slightly jealous, i am fking elated he heed my advice and went straight for it and kissed her.
That is something i can never accomplish, despite how indecent i look, i am reserve and shy.
I just wish they can and will manage to sustain this r/s. Because she is pretty awesome when i first met her today. She is just so different from the other cacausians.
Truth to be told, i feel that most of them aren’t really respectful. Don’t get me wrong, they are not rude, but they are just oblivious of their actions. Yes definitely a culture difference, asians are always worried about how others perceive us. its not a matter of high EQ or not, its just different here. in my place when theres a long queue, i would definitely try to order or make myself scarce as soon as possible, like any hiccups that delays the queuing would shame me indefinitely. Over here, people take their time, as if they earned the right through queuing, taking their sweet time to do the times they want to before moving on and out of the queue.
Its not something bad, its just that we feel embarrassed really easily.
Maybe i shoulda just went ahead, i am pretty sure our chemistry was there and being dilly dally is a turn off. I was wrong. I don’t know anymore.
I have stopped trying. And i don’t know what you are trying to pull now. This hot and cold thing really puts me off. Really, if i were to be brutally honest, i think its my way of protecting myself. And that the mind recognises you as a threat and wants to remove you out of the system. So instead of secreting endorphins when i see you(holy fk it sounds damn wrong haha), it starts to, no nothing is happening now.
But really, i just wish lin and her will go far. And really, i am so used to saying and writing negative stuffs that i am oblivious to how and what i really am anymore.
I don’t love, i don’t hate. I will cherish this moment of tranquility. Finally, i am indifferent again~