I’ve got a whatsapp text frm my grp chat one morning telling me to be at MBS hotel(Marina Bay Sands - Singapore’s most prominent hotel) at night. Uhm okay so whats the occassion? Was it W’s birthday? The chat had D, W and Y.
So i rang D up wanting to explode, because informing me last minute for birthday parties really put me off.
"Dude wdf? W’s bd is today? And you guys tell me only now? I’ve got stuffs on"
"We said that 2 weeks ago, and its my birthday FFS"
Okay we were both embarrassed. Haha. I called him to ask whose birthday it was and it was his. Lol.
So in a way i owe him one. Truth to be told facebook is the only way i know who’s bd is when, cept for mum and yoonA’s. I kinda forgot my Dad’s bd but anw, moving on.
I told D it was my bd today so we were even. Haha.
So when he asked where i wna be, i said ” Paradise “
Immediately he started blabbering about red light district. Please, i’ve nv been to such a place cept for once when i was in Germany. I’m pure and decent as hell.
It was then i realized that the word ’ Paradise ‘, apart from singing Coldplay’s song subliminally at the back of my mind, that word had no visual at all. I cldn’t conjure any image related to paradise, meaning idk what my paradise looked like.
Haha, true enuff. We can dream of where we wna be with who we wna be. When ask, “whats ur dream?” A kid would tell you his aspiration, candy land, toy castles and being a superhero. It comes out naturally. It seems i’ve forgotten what being a kid was like.
How i wished to grow taller than the parapets so i could see afar from my corridors. And i would always tip toe so hard to look at the trees because i stay relatively taller than them. Or peek at the holes partitioning the walls to catch a glimpse of the playground and the kids in it. How Playstation was larger than life and looking forward to sunday morning’s Digimon anime what not. And how Mcdonalds is such a sacred place that you are only allowed access when ur mum feels you have ate enuff healthy greens to qualify you for junk food, fast food.
Those were the days of simple pleasure. I have them all now. And i’ve overlooked them all as well. Back then, those ‘wants’ were simple yet fulfilling. But now? Idk man. I wna be rich. But this seems to be induced by society, an induced want. Back then i didnt wanted Mcdonald becuz everyone had ‘em, bt it tasted heavenly once in awhile. Back then Playstation kept me up for hours and every moment spent was pure jubilee.
To put it simply, i am not as happy as i was back when i was a kid. Does maturity bring in much complication for this pre adult to handle? Hmm.. “no adolescent matures, they just become older adolescent” FFS, i just heard this quote on this show which i forgot minutes ago bt it has gotta do with kids will always be kids and obviously my quote fails me miserably. I cant recall it at all.
Haha, okay nuff said. I do hope some day i wake up in paradise, at least i will be answerable to the me of the past, which is the present. Lol
Its just that MY birthday doesn’t signify anything (to me).
Its not like i’ve conquered yet another milestone.
Till date, i still muse upon me, my life, and life.
So when i attend fancy birthday parties, it would mean, to me, that frens and family coming together to celebrate the life of that individual. And he she is worth the celebration, that we extol the life of such a wonderful individual.
Its not that i hate myself or anything. I believe everyone does, in their very own ways, to each his own. And precisely to each his own, because the term ’ celebrate ’ bugs me. You hafta ’ celebrate ’ your birthday.
Since there’s nothing to celebrate about on this day, and its pretty darn late.
Gd nyte people! I missed reservists. It was a one week getaway. It was good. It made me introspect the things i’ve missed. Now i’m asking more ‘Why’s than i ever did.
I can respect your opinions on TDKR, but your "review" and what not was literally the hardest thing I've ever tried to read. I can't understand the way you chose to write (ex: srsly, etc.) Would it be possible for you to rewrite it normally?
This was the first thing i woke up to and i’m feeling pretty down right now.
Nah just kidding. To be honest, i really thank you for writing this. The fact is this isn’t exactly a review, its more of a retrospection. I treat Tumblr more like a blog, a writing space where i just pen anything that comes to mind and in this case, it would appear to be what went through my mind right after the show - a discussion with my friend of how we found the movie and stuffs.
I apologize i couldn’t write a proper review like those seen off imdb and believe me i would love to write like that. I’ve studied a wee bit of cinematography and i can only identify basic motifs and different shot scenes which i find impressionable but i dun include much of such stuffs.
Or you could treat me like an avid fan going gugu gaga over the actors/actresses and directors and i really enjoy movies. So it’s even possible for me to relate a movie to my life and going beyond that into something far fetched because i’m just writing with the flow.
No offense taken and i appreciate you writing this. In the future i hope you would still find the time to browse thru my ‘reviews’.
PS: I just didn’t agreed with Nolan’s interpretation of Bane. We all know directors interpret and change the original story line from the cartoons but i just thought changing Bane that much was equivalent to not giving Thor his hammer :S
Do NOT read this if you haven't caught the Drk Knight unless you're a tad interested but that seldom happens to anyone so yea
WHO KNEW? WHO KNEW? THAT JGL was in Drk Knight?
Oh right there were the trailers. And i would close my eyes every time i see it coming. I did not want to see ANY trailers at all.
Right. So the Rooney look alike JGL was it. I luv that guy :]
Generally the casts were awesome. I have this crazy idea that Anne would ditch Adam and we would elope somewhere and i’ll be cat man. Christian Bale is just being himself, consistent and great acting as always. And guess what? Joey King was the young Talia. When i got home, i had to look it up to see what role she played in. Becuz she shaved herself bald and i cldn’t recognise that pretty little face.
Everyone was great, Gary, Morgan really, everyone.
BUT i DID NOT LIKE how Tom Hardy portrayed Bane. No, Tom is great. He’s really gd looking. But i felt the bulking up didn’t worked for him. At a closer look, he seems too beefy,bloated rather, not lean at all, and if you were to tell me thats how Bane’s suppose to be then screw you much.
I know Nolan wanted to portray Bane differently. But i grew up watching Batman cartoons on TV and Bane was a really memorable villain and the intimidation i got from him still resides within me till now.
Bane uses the venom pump to get bigger and how Batman destroyed him was that he overloaded him and he burst! Trust me, that was part of my childhood trauma which is why that fight scene is still pretty vivid.
I expected Bane(Hardy) to have similar ability and i thought the lycra mask and pants was what defines him.
Either way, Nolan is a genius and doesn’t fail to deliver. Haha. Parts where i scrutinized, i was always able to answer ‘em myself.
"So the last part, The Bat’s auto-pilot got fixed 6 months ago meaning Batman went auto-pilot and the only way he cld have fled was to eject off the plane. So we did not see him ejecting what not. Then i recalled the explosion where he fired this building and it clda masked his escape or sth along the line. Lol that was pretty lame but srsly u gotta make sense out of the stuffs there"
But anw now we know theres Robin but since this is the last of the triology i doubt he wld be directing it the next franchise . Honestly i luv the cast and i really want them to continue with Batman and Robin.
I still have loads to share but oh well, no one reads this anw and i’m lazy to continue.
My deepest condolence to the Colorado victims.. I dun get it. I just dun get why people do such stuffs. And tbh, this is when Batman is really needed. Because idiots out there are there to ruin lives. I luv movies. And the thought of a maniac rushing into the screening spraying his machine gun while you’re enjoying the show doesn’t make sense to me. No really, wtf is happening to the world..
But all this marianas deep web TOR shyt gg on about hiddenwiki and CP and drugs and whatnot seems pretty real to me.
I will not venture there but i’ve alwaes wondered bout our world wide web.
Just never expected this.
And ACCEL WORLD, its an anime. Watch it.
It struck me that what the show is portraying almost the same idea. To reach lvl 8(10).
" over all people think that there are 8 layers in total. the last one being the primarch system. you need quantum computing to get past the 6th layer. and this is where things get REALLY ****ed up.
the 7th layer from what I know is where the big players are. they are all trying to stop each other. basically there are hundreds of million (or billion) dollar operations gunning for control.
the 7th layer is sometimes call “the fog”. or “virus soup” because the entire thing is pumped full of SOO SOO much code to try and ruin other people poking around in there. basically everyone is fighting to keep others out because of the value of the systems below.
level 8 is impossible to access directly. the primarch system is literally the thing controlling the internet atm. no government has control of it. in fact nobody even knows what it IS. its a anomaly that basically was discovered by super deep web scans in the early 2000’s. the system is unresponsive but it sends out unalterable commands to the entire net randomly. basically the entire 7th layer is people trying to gain access to the 8th and stopping others (at any cost) from getting there as well. the 8th layer is thought to be separated by a level 17 quantum t.r.001 level function lock (aka virtually impossible for our computers to break atm). “
I got back frm work(Intern rather) and was rushing out to meet frens.
But i decided to eat a raw garlic as i’ve read about the benefits of having them raw.
Dad peeled the skins away for me and i took a small bite.
It’s taste was too strong for me so i decided to swallow it with water.
Truth to be told, choking doesn’t sound life threatening at all bt believe me if you were at my house witnessing this you do prolly freaked.
Dad was stupefied.
The garlic was the size of a cherry, slightly smaller. Its huge.
Here’s the fun part ~
The body REACTS before you’ve decided on anything. Truth to be told, i went straight on my knees and the hard and raw garlic stuck right at the back of the throat induces my violent regurgitation.
Everything happened pretty darn fast. Saliva was all over the floor. When i was on the ground i realized the body is actually try’na save itself and my mind was completely aware. In a way the soul is separated from the body, the body moves on its own, not exactly disobeying your control but more like it moves on its own.
I knew shyt got real when i cldn’t get it out. Then i thought maybe i should try and swallow it instead.
The pain was immense and i nearly teared. I cldn’t swallow it down at all.
I gestured to dad to call the ambulance and my mind went like “Holy fk, if i can’t get this out, what wld the paramedics do? And if they fail how would doctors remove this deadly raw garlic of pain? Operations? Omg i dun wna get sliced open..”
I was pretty surprised the mind was able to process that clearly. And i went to the ground the second time, as if praying to the gods above bt really i just looked like a deformed spiderman on fours. Dad pummel my back rapidly bt to no avail.
This time round the excretion(SALIVA LOL) had scraps of brown. I was like ” Wow garlic changed color ? ” and it wasn’t long then the thought of “CHICKEN WING” i had earlier on is coming out.
Whats funny was that at this point things became really lucid. I wasn’t going to die. It just wasn’t my time yet. Seriously i felt it, i just knew i wont die. LOL it was a really unique and outta the world feeling. Because i know my windpipe wasn’t choked, i could converse a bit because i felt the need to tell my dad i can still breathe. Wow come to think of it if sth that huge landed in my trachea.. But i was pretty sure it wasn’t.
Dad was about to call the ambulance and i even had the decency to wear a t -shirt becuz i was only in my jeans. When i walked into my room to look for a Tee, it went down, just like that.
Lol it happened so fast i didn’t even see it coming. I just felt that either walking ard really helps for choking or my room’s aura/presence helped me. LOL.
Believe me everything occurred less than 2 mins but it felt like aeons.
When it was over, i sat down at the kitchen floor as my dad wiped the floors. He said he was trembling seeing me in such distress. Haha but its all good now. I sat on the floor and pondered real hard what happened. It was still surreal for me. I wondered if swallowing a garlic that size was pure stupidity. Honestly i wld blame it on my work becuz i’m dead tired when i reach home. But swallowing sth that size doesn’t seem.. oh idk.. i was pretty stone and cldn’t grasp what really happened though my mind clearly remembered every detail of it. Why did this happen out of the blue and it all happened too fast.
I was just mad that even someone like me, who likes to read up on bio and human anatomy and whatnot stuffs, can’t handle a situation of choking. It took me off my ground and i was left not knwing what to do. True enough, people get choked frm fishballs and u shld do abdominal thrusts from behind. But that garlic was raw and hard and nth seemed to help.
The scariest feeling was that you are aware of ur body instantaneously reacting like some defense mechanism and when the vomiting felt to disgorge it out, subliminally you would exert the extra force and when that fails too thats when you feel helpless :D
Having said that much, it was definitely a close shave. A pity i swallowed the garlic and i cldn’t take a picture of it to solemnize my closest encounter to death. Trolol but i am really thankful i’m still here typing.
What i really got out of it was not YOLO, but even at my dying moments, there are just things that i wldn’t let go. And that even if i were to lose consciousness, my will power would continue what needs to be done. Lol i’m just saying i didn’t expect myself to.. nvm this is too personal, shall leave it here.