Not the drunk wasted. Thats stupidity. But this is worse.
School was supposed to start officially today.
And it did. I turned up for lectures but still…
And when i’m back here i choose to sleep. Cause i can’t picture myself sitting in frnt of my lappy and read notes. Srsly how does anyone study? I am a freaking closet player. I tell people i’m gna go home and catch up with studies. And all i do is yawn and watch videos and stare into space.
I NEED SOMETHING TO MOTIVATE ME. HELP.
Shall attempt to flip ONE page of notes now. They ought to get me going. But it feels waeee foreign doing that. Prolly i have never done that before. Honestly what did i do for the past year? I have no idea. Started to even bother whats gg on when CA was nearing. Seems to be the case. *slaps self awake. I have to start studying cause i’m running out of things to watch T_T . Aigooooo. Of i go, to study. God knows whats gna happen again. Sigh…
I thought ***** death was really artistic. I dun wna spoil just in case.
And they did end it abruptly. You don’t know what happen to a few of dem.
Nonetheless its all good.
And Kim Yeong Ju. I never liked you till this episode 19.
So let me spazz while i’m at it. Freaking emotional scene when he *****. That was ep 19. Just finished the last episode. OMG City Hunter can be so crappy at times but Minho is so fucking good looking he gives me a boner. I lied bout the boner part but he’s effing handsome. GOD…WHUT IS WRONG WITH HIM…. Crazily handsome.
And i really liked the cast. All of dem. The pretty were pretty and the handsome were handsome. Luv them. Needs to find some CH pics to post. YAWnnnZZ NYTEE myself.
1. Kim Tae Hee 2. Shin Min Ah 3. Lee Min Jung 4. Song Hye Kyo 5. Lee Na Young 6. Han Ga In 7. Han Ye Seul 8. Soo Ae 9. IU 10. SNSD Yoona 11. Son Ye Jin 12. Ha Ji Won 13. Shin Se Kyung 14. Han Ji Min 15. Jeon Ji Hyun 16. Sung Yuri 17. Song Ji Hyo 18. SNSD Seohyun 19. Goo Hye Sun 20. Hwang Jung Eum 21. 2NE1 Sandara Park 22. Lee Yeon Hee 23. Choi Kang Hee 24. Lee Hyori 25. Jo Yeo Jung 26. Park Han Byul 27. Go Hyun Jung 28. Yoon Eun Hye 29. After School Uee 30. Moon Geun Young 31. Park Min Young 32. Go Ara 33. Kim So Yeon 34. Wonder Girls Sohee 35. Son Dam Bi 36. Kim Ah Joong 37. Lee Young Ae 38. Kim Ok Bin 39. Kim Hye Soo 40. BoA 41. BEG GaIn 42. Kim Hyo Jin 43. Go So Young 44. Eugene 45. Park Si Yeon 46. Kim Min Hee 47. Kim Nam Soo 48. Hwang Shin Hae 49. Lee Mi Seok 50. Jang Mi Hee
If i kept quiet after seeing this, i’m a fag. But i’m not. BoA is at 40th? Nice. IU ABOVE YOONA? I remember read the title ‘MOST BEAUTIFUL stars’, IU is cute, but yoonA is cuter. In terms of everything, YoonG shldnt lose. Oh please. I can swallow the top 10, well i actually understand why they would choose them. BUT YOU PUT IU ABOVE YOONA. THAT I CANT SWALLOW. SHOULD I PUT PICTURES HERE TO COMPARE?
I never liked Han Ga In, not even after watching ‘Bad Guy’. That’s my personal preference but everyone seems to luv her. Oh well.. BUT YOU PUT IU ABOVE YOONA?
Stupid Y-Star shyt. Cable Channel? Everyone’s gna subscribe to…. MIO TV MAN. IF U WERE IN SINGAPORE THAT IS. BUT UR NOT. I’m PISSED OFF AND IDK WHAT TO SAE. RAWR!!!! And you put me @ 44? Okae i’m fine with that anw. Just noticed Seohyun is inside as well. Weee maknae. If only you were older. They would have ranked you higher. BUT YOU PUT IU ABOVE YOONA?
4 weeks into school term, or was it 5. Doesn’t matter. Hadn’t flipped a single page of lecture notes. Idk bout you but i’ve heard stuffs like that incessantly. And i would come up with all sorts of thought process, wondering why there’s a need for people to tell that to others. Let’s not get there. There’s just too much to speculate.
Cept this semester is totally different? Everyone around is OPENLY mugging. That freaked me alil. But ultimately i’m worried not becoz *omg contagion looks like a good movie, not to peer pressure, but *i got distracted by twitter =(… but what i can’t recall. I’m taking omega 3 pills and they dun seem to cure my alzheimers. I need a companion to feed me when i forget to eat, to tell me stop posting the same stuffs on tumblr cause i’ve posted them before.
OKAE this might end up essay long again. Well i started tumblr writing essays. WHY NOT. bahaha. So i’m suppose to stop skipping lectures but when i do, i sleep in there. Narcolepsy, lecturelepsy rather. I sleep everytime i’m in there. And during tutorials i think about…. *Surveys were conducted in the US and that 90% or more(cant remember) of the people in lectures think about sex during lecture. I think about something else, trust me on that.
Swore to them that i’ll definitely listen to at least ONE online lecture or i would die. I am a typing dead. But srsly, this coming week. I’m gna do it. Alwaes had taken a liking for the wise, the intelligent, the resolute, one who knows what she needs exactly. Which is you i find it so hard to cut myself away off you. I’m drawn to you.
And they say people look for what they lack themselves in their partners. Couldn’t agree more. Genitals aside, character, personality and behaviour. Opposites attract. Thats the way of life.
I have digressed enough. And i’m having difficulty with what i wanted to write. ooommmmgggg….. i can throw this brain away… I give up. I cant recall. Anw i needa get my act together. I’m gna have to stop bumming around. For real. I will finish my yoonA drawing, somehow. I’ll hafta forgo gaming. Am fine with that. I dun plae that much recently either. Gyming is a must. Mustn’t let the whey go to waste. ZY asked who i’m bulking for. I ask myself that too. But i know who, and i didn’t tell him, but i bet he knows. Douche. Lol. Pretty words. Bet i would be too lazy to even hit the gym thrice. I HAVE BECOME THE PROCRASTINATOR. Gimme a cape and i’ll be a superhero.
Blatantly obvious that i need to study. My god. On daes when i woke up and sing ‘if i die young’ in chinese, i would luff @ myself *yay i’m a weirdo, am not. I sing that to my frens too +D. But really, i’m fine with dying any moment now. There doesn’t seems like there’s much to lose. For i have nothing, i am nothing in fact. No gers out there would need such a wuss like me, no frens would either.
Disclaimer : All these are just my inner thoughts, they don’t exactly reflect on my real life. Well, maybe i would reveal some accidentally but even so, it doesn’t really show. Though i would share some at times, but i no longer do now, not that it matters, not that it hurts, not that it’s of any significance at all. One last thing, i’m not entirely honest here either, i was NEVER HONEST WITH MYSELF. Which is why there’s even a need for me to write things on tumblr, to see what i can let out and what i can’t. But i’ve been using more muscles than brains these daes. That nerdy intellect(self proclaimed) seems to gone into a deep slumber. Its okay, he should get his rest. If i die, where do i go?
Thumbs up to the weird disclaimer popping out of nowhere. My head is hurting now. Stupid fever. Good thing i recovered rather fast. It’s the weather’s fault! Speaking of which. Hurricane Irene. HS said something so stupid i rolled on floor laughin. Nah i didn’t i just LMAO. He’s from RI summre.
"Hurricane Katrina was named Katrina cause Obama cheated on his wife with Katrina, So Hurricane Irene, omg new sex mate?"
Les said(or thats what i heard),’ The US name their hurricanes thats above a certain scale from A-Z within a year and it goes up accordingly. So Hurricane Irene is the 9th hurricane of the year’ Spoken like a true… Hmmm he said he’s tryin for yale or harvard. Yay one of the few smart frens i have. The rest are dumbfuck. COME ON I WAS JOKING. lol. But yea i really like humble smarties. They make good night HTHT. A pity i dun have many of dem. Smh.
Screw myself. Why is it so hard to remember. This selective memory that has once protected me is showing its side effects wae too much man. RawrrRR
If dinosaurs didn’t extinct, would they evolve and maybe humans might look like dinosaurs. Darwin’s evolution, yes we are lacking the missing link and afew stuffs and everywhere scientists are rejecting D’s E. Forgot what i read but i’m pretty sure about that. D’s E went against religion as well. So the christian scientist must be celebrating. Yea you and your noah’s ark that had a tiger beside deer and apparently they cross mate and thats how tiger beer came about. At times i’m amazed at my impromptu jokes. LOL. WIth reference to planet of the apes, why only apes evolved into humans? Dun correct me here. I know my stuffs. Hominid and Homin and i forgot what else there is to it. Ape, monkey,gorilla, what not lets just classify them to one. We are rather similar to apes. And we have the same ancestry that might have been possibly diverged to apes and us. Still, if dinosaur existed and something similar happen? Man imagine that. Screw you natural selection!!! I lost to you. Trolollll
Doesn’t matter, 2012 we’re gna reach a higher conscious. Mayans, let that be true. Let me see beyond what i’m seeing. I’m too closed minded to. I seen an UFO the other dae and no one believed me. At least i think i did.
Digressed till 2012. Nice. I btr be off soon. Enuff whining. But understand why i’m whining. Because it hurts.
*Needs to start making this a normal tumblr. How to follow people when i keep doing stuffs like this. Rahahaha.
Todae’s MJ’s birthdae. It’s all over twitter. You are truly missed. King of pop.
You know something MJ? According to mum, its my dad’s birthdae today as well. My dad’s Michael too. Idk if he’s birthdae is today or sept 1st. I can’t remember. I don’t remember. I didn’t wish him. I wished you instead. Haha. But trust me our relationship isn’t that bad. We do talk.
I was in the public toilets and had just sat down, a voice from the next cubicle said “Hi! how are you ?” Embarrassed, I said, “I’m doing fine”. The voice said “So what are you up to ?”. I said, “Just doing the same as you, sitting here!”. From next door, “Can I come over?”. Annoyed, I said ” rather busy right now”. The voice said, “Listen, i will have to call you back, there’s an idiot next door answering all my questions”.
I am reminded of what i am. Albeit i was able to conjure, self deceit rather, i was pretty happy.
As much as I ‘hate’ myself, i’m equally thankful to you.
I’m alwaes thankful for my nebulous thoughts that’s so far fetched that the thought of it seems surreal, because it’s so ridiculously fake it seems real.
Dream vs Reality. You hear that often. Dream In Reality? That’s my forte. I dun even wna go there, to explain what it really is. I’m equally puzzled.
Things weren’t suppose to be this way. The posts i wanted to make, they ceased to exist. Good thing i halted. It was never meant to be.
I don’t need a miracle. I need a breakthrough. Doesn’t hafta be a BAM! Just subtly will do.
The older i get, the harder it gets. ===> applies to life as well. Been too tired to think these daes(even now), distraction was never a permanent solution. Why a solution? Cause there’s a problem. Why a problem? Cause humans want what they need. What i need?
I’ll let you know when i figure that out. Or prolly because i don’t know what i need, resulting to not knowing what i want and thus a problem surfaces.
But i do know what i really really need. I’m spacing out now. Lol. I must be the weirdest person alive. And its mere coincidence(i hope?) i get called weird by the people around one after the other. Put them tgt and i’ll be the ultimatum - A full blooded weirdo. Trololololllll.
I’m not. I’m just different. UNIQUE!!! I miss talking to myself. Where have you been, self? wahahhaahahahaaaa
It only dawn on me that why people even have fan accounts on fb/twitter and where not. Haha.
Alwaes felt there’s no need to hide the fandom(Honestly there’s EVERY need to hide it). Thought it was normal to be tweeting. Until i felt like spazzing on twitter and the 2nd post was kinda embarrassing, the 1st wasn’t any better. Why would my frens be interested in my freak esque kpop fandom? ALL of dem know i’m like that but it’s not nice to flood their tweet feed with my random K fandom. Its embarrassing. Like this
I NEED TO FINISH DRAWING MY YOONA BEFORE KRYSTAL COMPLETELY KRYSTALLIZED ME.
found a dead cockroach. Hey my room is f-ing new and why do you guys keep coming at me? Landlady said woah you heng ah! bert ard to catch for you. i can’t do this alone. I really can’t. No one will alwaes be dere to catch cockroaches for me. :( I’m a damsel in distress, more like a hairy maiden. HAHAAAA
The hype over kimberly chia just cause she’s pretty. Her twitter came up and shes garnering lotsa attention. On the fringe? Or In the fringe. That chinese drama on chan 8. Yea shes really sweet but i prefer her counterpart, side kick rather. Joey? Thats her name?
Apparently shes from NYJC too, or so a fren told me. That makes me her sunbae. HAHA joke -.- Definitely not as eye catching as kim but she’s got it. Afterall they are still young. PAEDOOOOOO.
Alright i admit i had look kimberly up on google after ‘fighting spiders’. That just means people who watch chan5 ain’t raging testosterone teens but the teens watching channel 8 are. I belong to the initial. Phew. =X MILLION DOLLAR MONEY DROP!!! Needa watch my james franco twin NOW