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They say we can’t have the best of both worlds.
They were right.
I luv the sun, i luv the rain.
But i hate jackal’s wedding.
Weather really affects me.
Doubt anyone realises that.
They shouldn’t.
Cause no one should ever know what i hide.
I think i might have found him. Its not gay stuffs or anything. It could have been a him or her.
The one whose similar to me. If people with the same pain can come together, they would be able to relate to one another. I’ve never been able to find anyone that shared my darkest secret. He might be the one. He’s unaware of it though. But i’m not too sure either. And he’s holding up pretty well. Chances of people discovering his secret is low. Haha. Its fun. For i know he’s hiding. Then again i can’t be completely sure that its the same as mine. Oh what am i saeing. -.- So ya. I might have found him. I’m happy that i’m not alone, i’m sad that i am no longer unique. =( hurhurs.
But i will never let him know we’re on the same boat. I wna see how he overcomes and hides this from everyone. Maybe i can learn something from him. BUT DAMN HE’s attached. Is he mad? -.- What if i’m wrong and its not what i think it is. Sighhhhh. Still, i hope it doesn’t hinder him as much as it does for me. =S
Hate me, for you will never understand.
I’m meant to be alone, for you will never understand.
I’m manning up,
i do what i can,
and if all doesn’t make any sense to you,
yes you will never understand.
Cause i was born this way.
No really, not gaga’s song. But theres just things in life thats certain. And that i know is certain. :]
Not cause i saw yoonA, but i recalled that i had to do star wars and plan my time table.
Seriously farked. I am blur. And i dun bother. I cant be bothered actually. These daes i haf been roaming the streets. Not really. I hafen been engagin in intellectual shyts, well occasionally i do. And i’ve been flooded with thoughts which i didnt pen it down. Cause i was busy and could only reach home at 4 5 am in the morning. And i didnt had the chance to rot at home and think about the world.
Like i said, my parents are awae and i wna spend quality time with myself. When i was younger i would be freaked out by staying home alone. Any sudden movements or noises would make me jump. But now? Yea it still happens. LOL. But since i’m not home most of the time i’m not that huge nerved. Anw. They are returning tml and fark, why am i even alwaes going out.
It doesnt make sense when i wna rot at home and i cant. When i wna go out and no one is free to. Still, i was panicking just now when i thought about school and how detached i really am. How clueless i was and what kind of mods i should take.
And prolly because i dun have much uni frens, no wait. In ntu, i didnt even make frens at all. Okae maybe afew and they are all guys. Lol nth wrong with that but uni is clearly not my kind of thing. Oh how i hate the hall stuffs… how i despise those idiots. Yea i’m judging. They forced me to. So…..
Well, i’m writing this not cause i wna bitch. But i just called jh and found out that the both of us are idiots who rely too much on others. Seriously. Make me a ger. I am too dependent. Wait. That would make me look bad. When the situation calls for, you can be sure. AISH. Forget it. I dun hafta convince anyone. I’m aware how people view me and what kinda person i am to them. I’m cool with that. So ya.
After bullshyting so much. At least we roughly know what to do for star wars and mod bidding. Hafta suffer just cause i dun have seniors or friends to ask. lol. Even if i do i just dun feel like asking them. And remembering what i wna write yesterdae makes me even more pissed for if i do this would be an essay again, not liek it isnt right now.
So i followed mel’s tumblr. And i look at the pictures. And the layout. And i thought “Is tumblr a place of expression or isit a blog where you put everything you like down?” Theres a difference yea. When its a place of expression, you take what you like and put it there and leaving it there to let people view it. If its a blog, you dish your feelings out, be it its for people to see or for u to read or just WRITE WHATEVER U WANT LIKE ME. Did i use dish? lol. Doubt its even english. Oh heck its urban english. ke ke.
So looking at my tumblr. Its definitely not a place for expression. WELL, it is verbally, or non-verbally since i’m typing. So ya. If i were to compare. I would like her tumblr more than mine. Since its pictures. And i like pictures. Though it doesnt recall your timeline(LOL timeline), like your thought and the events that occurred that made you think/or dun think/ or what not, its alwaes nicer to see pictures than to write.
Then again, i hafta let it out somewhere. Its not liek i’m publishing this to my friends, or my social circle. I just needa let it out. But i’m beginning to be lazy when i’m busy. Fret not, in weeks to come before reservists, i would have time to revamp this place and make it into a picture blog with occasional essays and making it proper so its not that embarrassing should anyone stumble upon it.
And i expect that during school times, when school starts that is. I would spend most of my time stoning since everyone is busy studying, then i would come tumblr more often than not and look at pics. AND RIGHT NOW, the only thing thats left would be to dig out good tumblr sites to follow. Not follow but to constantly check on them. Cause following can get messy at times. And wanted to ask mel what sites to follow. But its stupid. Why? Since i follow her she would post whats nice. If so, i would be doing xtra work wouldnt i? No, its like posting what she posts. Yea. Redundantly redundant. 2:48am and i’m feeling tired? Did i eat too much just now? Its time to wind the clock back yea?
And i’m kinda glad i didnt get much of a chance to stay at home while parents are awae. Who knows…. i might not make it through the night thinking of you. Haha i stopped though. I’m farked. I hate myself. :]
But really, lets engage in intellectual talk soon mr tumblr. I’ll pen it down.
But tml i’ll be home the whole dae so i can post tumblr posts! Yay.
Mood SWUNG. As i walk past rj/ri(they are tgt right)? Yea the hormones that makes u depress and melancholic (wonder what its called) started gushing out.
I touch on that later okae. I wna plae one game of dota. ke ke
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sexy see through lace? yoona. what ARE U DOING. =( See through? SEE THROUGH? YOONG. Of all times… today? u sure knw how to choose. let them ogle then. go ahead. See the world what you got. And i thought i’m suppose to be the only guy to see through you. Sigh. SIGHHH. U. SEXY? GO ahead. Ask the whole snsd to be sexy. go. now. tell. them. I’m really hate to see u like this. But ur godly pretty though.
To be frank. I alwaes wondered what happens if u have boobs. Not that u dun now but bigger ones. I dun wna think about it and i dun wna think about how guys would see you. Guess i’ll alwaes be ur fanboi, one that you never knew existed. You are a part of me. Only you will never realise it, and i dun do what normal sones do. They would follow news and read up on you. Me? I just see/ hear news of you or even on magazines or if its people on the streets talking about you, i would think they are talking about MY YOONA. Tell me i’m not delusional and sane. You would be lying. And this lie has become a part of me. Not that it affects me adversely, it doesnt actually. But i’m getting emptier by the minute. Not cause of you, but cause its not you, thats y i feel empty. Hard to make sense? Well. Its because i am feeling empty not because of you, if i were to feel empty because of you, that means YOU CAN FILL THE VOID. RIGHT NOW. Something else is missing. But if you to be here. Actually ya… you do complete my life. wa ka ka ka hahaa
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i am feeling kinda lousy. its cause of her again. i wonder why . lol. when the heart doesnt feel that way anymre and i’m still yearning. sucks to me. What if i’m really a blackhole. I’m so empty and cold. And i would suck EVERYTHING THATS NEAR ME. I might not need them but i want them. Thats what blackhole does. That means its gna be bastarding her. Nah i will never do that. I like her. Shes a decent fren. So ya. Lets talk tml kae. Anneyonghi
Todae maknae birthdae and i never wished her on the dot cause fone died just now. Sigh. No more wishing on fb. Wish on twitter instead. =)
Sigh been forever since i seen/heard snsd. =( Wonder how they are doing now. Damn needa go bathe now. Sucks to be home alone. Its scary and cold, or warm for sg’s weather in this context. hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Cause i just learnt how to boil hot water and how the thermal dispenser(i wonder what u call it, that thermal flask that dispenses warm water and keep them warm) opens up.
Been living in this home for 21 years and i never knew how things work. You can roughly get the idea how hmmm i dun wna use the word pamper here but… how dependent i really am.
So my parents are gg awae for 4 daes. So its just me and myself. =) The last time that happened i nearly killed myself. Just couldnt find the guts to. Wonder whats gna happen this time round. STAY TUNED. LOL
Todae we finally ate amoi street’s food. Hehee this is the 6th attempt of gg and finally its open. The prawn paste chicken is good. But the fried fish soup let me down. Good thing they enjoyed their prawn paste chicken, though it didn’t tasted as good as what i had earlier with xds and gang. At least they liked it. So i didn’t let them down! =DD
Just saw this on yq’s page. lol. MARINA BAY SAND SHIP IS FALLING!
I alwaes thought thats the ship in singapore for 2012. Thats the ark! So i’ll be on it on 21st december 2012. YUP. Its 2011 already. ke ke
Lin Zhi Xuan June 25 at 10:38pm ReportHi! I am fond of cats and hamsters but I only have 3 fishes(7 of them died) and 2 turtles… My mum do not allow me to take care of them.
Eugene Yeo June 25 at 11:14pm icic. Take good care of the fishes and turtles you have and show your mum you can do a great job at keeping pets. Soon enough you might be able to convince her to let you keep hamsters! haha =) Have fun with renyi and the rest of the cousins. :D
ALRIGHT. I ADMIT. I didn’t even know what to reply her. I dun see her that often. Even if i do i dun really talk to her. Its not that i despise her or anything, shes rather cute n resembles korean. Its just that her parents(my uncle’/aunt) became something that ALL OF OUR COUSINS HAVE LEARN TO AVOID. Sigh. What happened exactly? I’m not sure either. It just happened that wae. =( We were alwaes rocking with ah hui jiu jiu. Now its a mere gesture of hi and smiles and no more. Shes our maknae cousin and the age gap is huge. We should be doting her alot but her parents are tooo strict for our comfort. Oh well. Hope they are enjoying themselves at the chalet now. Most of them are there. I’m tooo tirreeedddd to goooooo. Haha must be a disappointment again. Sigh. Of all daes when i’m free dun wna organise. And when i hafta stay out late and not sleep n gg out then they call. zZ
Liked nearly 50 pics post at one shot.
REALLY, seeing soshi’s pictures bring me back to reality.
How many did it took to knock me back?
Just one.
And when i started scrolling down for more on duckie’s site. It was madness.
And i was left in a daze when i saw that flawless yoong.
Snsd has an adverse effect on me.
Why?
They remind me of what i dun wna be reminded of.
Reality.
But i”m alwaes glad when i see the gers smiling and taking candid shots.
They suffered alot but on stage they smile.
They reap what they sow. Thats an entertainer’s life. And they wouldn’t have time to think of the stuffs that i ponder.
Yoong, why dun u read my tumblr.
Oh right, u don’t know english.
Damn why khun birthdae twitter trended but not yoong’s. =/
Took me like 20 seconds to figure out what #HBDKHUN was. Was tinking along the heartbreakdudekhun. LOL
Lets talk later. Its 6 now. Hope i remember what to write. And i enjoyed it so much
You knw whaT? I just wiki it. The last episode was on air in jap yesterdae, yea since its 6 now and i learn about this show at ard 12. Awesome timing to finish it at one shot.
Woah…….
NO ONE KNOWS. Its a japanese song. Its by a female artiste. I can only recall the lyrics going come…come… come **** and …. Stupid google. Ur useless for once.
Its not namie’s come, its another theme song by an anime. Been at this since……. 4 years ago? Dun even knw where i heard it. Its a superb song. Sigh… There seems to be no wae of locating it. Google is useless. Pissed off.Been typing come come on all over the place. COME CUM SOUNDS WRONG. I shld stop coming. LOL =X
My song =((((
Ke ke.
Was anyhow clicking on tumblr.
Realised i never did anyhow click before.
And i saw this section where it saes i’m giving how many % of my luv to which tumblr user.
And it was wifeyoona.tumblr!!
haha.
But a puny 13%.
Aigoo
I swear
I didn’t wanted to talk at all. lol
Not even here.
I just wanted to shut up.
And i did.
But i just had to bullshyt on twitter.
And i immediately regretted after i did.
I can’t delete it.
Later jan &(*$*#@^@# me.
Lol.
No harm done though.
Maybe i’ll be in the mood tml
Been home for the past 2 daes.
Luv it.
When i came home and tried to on my laptop moments ago, it didn’t respond. My heart sank and hit rock bottom IMMEDIATELY. I mumbled to self
” Dun die on me please, stupid water bottle, its so stupid that i spilled water onto you. What will i do without you? What can an only child do at home without a laptop?!”
And i remembered the last time i said something like that was during JC. My desktop died and i died along with it. All the backups weren’t there since i was too lazy to do so. And its been months since i did backing up on this laptop. Backup is one thing, no laptop to use is another. Both kills.
Well the fact that i’m writing this means it alright. Weeee waterproof laptop. :) Dun die when i wna rot at home. I luv u as much as i luv ……* the eyes stares blankly and tada… Nothing came to mind. :D
Nice. You actually watched it at 4 am. Your balls certainly grew. =D But was rather lucky. Cause this episode there wasnt much gore and madness. It was a good episode. But i feel i should really watch this show in the dae. Now my limbs are weak and i needa sleep. Awesome show, just maybe, i might be able to watch horror films after finishing this anime, or gore. Nah never. Never seen a horror film, never will. Small jewels. :[
City hunter 8 blew my mind. Lee min ho is hereby declared as the most good looking man on the face of this planet. He’s just too much. Equivalent to a yoong, the male version.
The female lead is pretty too. But not crazily pretty like yoong. I mean shes an icandy, but not a very sweet one. haha. Which is good for the health as you wont get diabetes. Which is why she is really pleasant and you wouldn’t get sick of her. In fact i felt minho and her looks kinda similar. Especially the eyes, cept minho is wae prettier. =X
But ultimately, it was the end. It gave me goosebumps. Sooooo needa watch the next episode badly. Argh. Can roughly tell where the story is heading for. Just like iris. I know its gna be sad but am hoping for a pleasant ending. Guess i’m really an ahjumma who indulges in dramas and watches this kind of drama that only girls favour. haha.
