Who will bring me flowers when it's over

I didnt knw dat song was addressin to social issues. damn i do hope OR really meant what they sang. true enuff. the lyrics were meaningful. And remembering the daes they were unheard of.and now one of the most successful bands ever. Bt i do haf a gd feeling about dem. =) Dey look like they do DO sth to help the world. rofl. i meant the 1st time i heard dem was apologize feat. former fat bois. u remmeber dun u. hmmm it was wae b4 timbaland’s eh eh eh. I alwaes tot why no1 knws this band. Well nw with fame n fortune, i still hope dey nv 4get their debut, their past, their origin. 

Hmm. humans alwaes aim for their goal n work hard for it. Bt at times when they attain it, they 4got wad they been thru n bask in it. Its okae to bask but they lost themselves in it. look at famous pop stars who flopped. damn dem? writing records to earn juz coz they screwed up their life n is in need of cash. sigh. 

oh well i juz googled One republic charity.Dey did! =DD smiles. haha. somedae i hope i do be successful. successful enuff to start a brand like toms n help ppl. as much as i hate insects, dirt, or anything associated with unpleasant. maybe i m nt those dat wld really help with actions. bt in the world todae, when deres money deres action. HAH. i can donate can i. yea i can barely scrap thru rite nw. still living on UR parent’s. rofl and ur alr 21!! screw u NS. Hmm i hope the nxt time u read dis u do be smiling. coz u didnt disappoint the me now. right nw i dun feel gd at all. i am kinda lost. i am waiting wad happens in 2012. or 2016 ~ newton. And everytime i said i give up. i lied. i alwaes hope for miracles. SO HELLO DERE eugene of the future. i hope ur doing fine. REAL FINE. fine enuff to read dis again. u used to said everything has a cause, a reason. but u see no reason in living. Lets change that okae. maybe ur not a thing. ur something. isnt dat STILL a thing -.- okae ur a human nt a thing. work for it. maybe u do pull thru. LOL. yea u shld start off with ur material sci n math mid terms dis week. u didnt haf the mood to study. i hope u can pull it off.Right nw Mid terms mean alot, bt in time when u look back, it means nth. Calm dwn n do wad u can. HWAITING!! ^^

Gosh its gna feel weird talking to myself. Nah it isnt since ur an only child =D 

Hmmm why isit that i alwaes hafta experience extreme ends of pheElinGS within a same frame of time. I mean its like it alwaes happen TOGETHER. First i was really excited bout the big bang tees in uniqlo dat imma go get. The nxt ting i knw i am watching this documentary in which the cleft lip hare lip child is getting his reconstructive surgery.The mum cldnt stop crying n hoping.

And to be frank the toddler looks really scary..it pains to see dat.sigh… Yes i haf alwaes been really afraid of seeing stuffs like those n hes is one of the worse case ever. But thankfully the surgeon was so awesome i dare sae he did a perfect job.Hes lips got sewed back perfectly and it didnt even leave a scar. i do haf frens with hare lip and i must sae technology advancement is really rapid. no wait dis is nt wad i was tryin to sae. -.-

While ppl out dere are tryin to look gd in sch or gyming to achieve S line figure or muscular tanned hawt bods. the sufferings of the 3rd world n the less fortunate are wad..yEa wad? The very existence of life seems meaningless suddenly seems INSIGNIFICANT TO ME. i mean Honestly any1’s goal in life would be to get rich n lead a happy life.to stay healthy and to look gd. So studying n working and achieving their goal is their life purpose. Bt when u put this ideal beside a handicap or any1 whose less fortunate. Why does earning money to buy facial products to make my skin look like those of an idol look so pathetic and insignificant.  Are we heading towards the wrng direction? The underlying problems of the society isnt being addressed.  

Look here u are tryin to grad with ur stupid 2nd upper engine degree. wad comes nxt. U work. u knw u dun lyk wad ur studying nw. u knw ur passion is in fashion. u knw u hate it. every little ting bothers u. ur mid terms nxt week pricks u. u hafen study.u worry. u haf a gathering nxt week and u wna look awesome. BUT deres god damn ppl living on scraps and wad not. u knw wads the best part? u haf such an awesome memory dat u go to slp with a heavy heart knwing deres nth much u can do about it and the nxt morning u 4get it and u do go twn with a fren n find the right size for ur big bang tee. well done E. it nv changes. I guess its alrite to feel small in times like dis. I m no revolutioner/ist wadeva dat is. u question bout the existence of life n u realise u do juz obey this retarded education slave system and continue with “whats right” . Fine. nuff said. It doesnt change. Whether its fb note or if its here. Sigh. i dun believe in any religion. imma agnoistic. I knw ur out dere. I believe no1 shld suffer when they are born. Karma shld hit back at u only when u do sth bad. Having said dat. this two faced tyrant wld definitely get caught in it as well. i will happy to accept my fate. Just show me that the word ” deserves ” deserve to exist. I believe no1 deserves to be born blind, retarded, ugly, stupid wad not. And yes genes plae a huge role. a pity darwin’s TOE failed. i cant sae much for natural selection -.- gotta read up on it. u did ages ago. bt u 4get. kool the nxt time u read stuffs wld be on natural selection. yay i blabbered enought crap. See u in a year’s time. by den i am sure u do luff at wad u wrote . U ALWaES DO =D lol ur being moody agn. gd nyte. =)